Lance Phillip

rant rant rant

Sat, 20 Jun 2009 04:48:39 GMT

when i don't keep busy i find myself pondering over hypotheticals,
minutes on end of "what ifs" and "if onlys" and then i stop myself.
I hate dreaming about someone i cared deeply about only
to shun it out the morning after in disdain.

How can I genuinely be happy for that someone who has already moved
on and found peace and happiness in someone else. I doubt i could
lie to myself like that. Parts of me stay behind, and that's
something i probably need to work on
Why am i so scornful?

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my sister is growing into a person i am despising more and more each
day. When i leave for work in the morning, she's on the computer
and when i come back in the evening she hasn't moved. Her nose is
constantly down at her phone texting away, and her ears always
plugged into her ipod. It disgusts me, i feel as though she is a
caricature of the obnoxious girls on the disney channel.
She complains about not getting texts and picture comments.

if i do move out, which i have been pondering over for a good three
months, i know the apartment will be left in shambles because
nobody in my family cleans up after themselves. Irritating!

ps. and i think my sisters late night internet voyages has finally
given our laptop a much-needed virus..

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I need to get lost in a really great movie

Wed, 10 Jun 2009 16:38:18 GMT

Top 5 best decisions of 2009:
-Staying at Aldo
-Taking jui jitsu
-Saving money
-Repairing my car
-????

my ass is getting promoted at aldo
It's going to be hard, yet so worth it

$$$$$$$$$, :)

first/last time i'm ever doing this

Wed, 03 Jun 2009 03:27:33 GMT

irrelevant thoughts about you, and you and you..

1. I miss your presence. I could tell you everything with the utmost assurance that it would be kept safe in the confines of your heart. I don't know where we are or how we got to this place. I can bet my bottom dollar that we will never be where we were, three years ago.

2. I doubt you'd ever recognize your own cynicism, even if it came in the form of a 3x5 piece of plywood that read, "Cynic" in scarlet red. I love you and I hate you.

3. We don't see eye to eye on certain things, but I've known you for so long that we can work past it. Our relationship is on pause as of late, but I'm enveloped in zeal at the thought of your homecoming.

4. I don't know what I'm doing with you. I'm really unhappy. Our conversations are bland, your humor is dry, my interest in you is waning by the second. I need someone exciting, spontaneous and you are none of the above. It's funny how I insist on staying for lack of someone better. You can never be what I want.

5. Just grow up already

Tue, 26 May 2009 18:38:10 GMT

i dreamt about EDC last night, this must be a sign for i never dream

Tue, 21 Apr 2009 16:11:30 GMT

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Upon receiving the impromptu question, Ms. California put the state of California to shame with her poor diction.
However, she does receive high marks for telling Perez/America how it ought to be

sean paul-get busy hahah

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 01:15:36 GMT

3am: Rods
7am: Church
10am: Meeting
11am: work
6pm: off, school work

Note to self: Don't spend anymore money eating out!

shiraz

traffic off diamond bar this morning

aw lauren

she turned straight for me

This morning, i made a point of saying to rod that all my close friends are in a relationship. It's a bit unnerving, i don't really know where i'm going with this
i took my sisters to church, i'm glad i woke up early this morning
traffic wasn't too bad
I loved the meeting, work was full of milfs. It's kind of amazing that some women don't let themselves go upon having a child, or two. I found myself just fawning over mothers as i helped them with their pumps. Please don't let yourselves go
I need to study, study, study
Can't wait for april, mothers' going away to germany for a month!

if only!

Wed, 18 Mar 2009 17:49:48 GMT

oh, but i will!

I'm currently head-over-heels over two women, it will pass, i understand. But both of which are significantly older than i am. Being nineteen is such a disadvantage--spoken like a true child, indeed!

I'm still receiving my training at the shoppes in chino hills. Only the rest of the week to go. I'm excited about our LA branch that is due in two weeks! I feel like an ecstatic father-to-be. Many of the employees in Chino Hills think highly of themselves, you can just tell by how they talk at you. But then, of course, there are the sweeties that are just remarkably approachable. I suppose there in lies the balance, c'est la vie

good day to be alive

Wed, 04 Mar 2009 03:30:49 GMT

i had orientation at the shoppes for the new forever xxi in montebello. I'm really excited because i start as a zone leader, which, as the name implies,oversees associates in a designated area. It's only when others are experiencing calamity that one begins to count their blessings and accept what they have.

Lately i've..
- been madly infatuated with someone
- made strong strides towards self-improvement
- terribly busy with work
- been brushing up on my french

i kind of love my life at this moment
au revoir

what is in a dream

Sat, 28 Feb 2009 22:42:43 GMT

last night, i dreamt i died and immidiatley found myself in the presence of God. I was overflowing with an unattainable earthly happiness. I saw God, but his face was void

wack.

feb. 21, 2009

Thu, 26 Feb 2009 22:43:35 GMT

2 corinthians 5:17, "therefore, if any man is in christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new."

i drove to corona for my sisters ortho appointment

breakfast of champions

pretty in pink

i locked her out

qt

so much for less than $5!

stupid

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i started sac earlier this week, it's love/hate. I see/saw a lot of familiar faces. I really love my french and jui jitsu class. That is all. Au Revoir

at least i have my health

Wed, 11 Feb 2009 19:25:39 GMT

i'm finally feeling better
i wish i had the cash to get my septum re-done/lowered
i hate that most of my savings goes towards
insurance, books, and all the other student fees
at least i have my health

i'm losing my voice

Thu, 05 Feb 2009 19:27:30 GMT

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annoying/rant/bullshit

Thu, 29 Jan 2009 00:34:41 GMT

ubiquitous phrases that irritate me:

"that's what she said"
"no homo"
"fuck my life"
the list goes on..

i fucking hate reading old entrees. i hate losing people to losers and i hate everyone whose fallen out of my life, i hate being plan B. motherfucker! i never get what/who i want

invitational

Mon, 26 Jan 2009 23:35:39 GMT

made this today,

"everything will be okay!"

Tue, 20 Jan 2009 16:36:23 GMT

yesterday, christine and i went to an italian bistro that i could not pronounce to save the life of me. After we drove around aimlessly around orange to find a theater that wasn't already sold out for marley and me.. after about an hour we threw in the towel, went to blockbuster, rented across the universe and purchased mint chocolate chip at baskin robins. Lovely

jan 17 09

Sun, 18 Jan 2009 00:21:24 GMT

my entire body is pulsating from yesterdays three hour workout at the gym and from running around under 85 degrees of pure, unrelenting sunlight while dodging paint balls from korean acquaintances in san diego.

Jan 5

Tue, 06 Jan 2009 08:25:10 GMT

jan 5, 2009: sore throats, complimentary ponys, bank accounts, jenn, jami, j-town, tea, sushi, masks, outrageous purchases, csuf, cold hands, work, insistent customers, shoes, petty theft

first of 09

Fri, 02 Jan 2009 19:57:14 GMT

i dislike other people finding out intimate details about my life from other sources.
Can we please keep that area of my life under the rug for now?

it's a new year, big deal! everyday is just as good as any to half-ass on "resolutions" and start off on a "clean slate", losers!

we hung out last night and it was good, i liked it!

someone please resuscitate an old friend of mine, Substance. She's absent in all of yours (and my/mine) journal entrees, thanks!

Hi, 2009

Thu, 01 Jan 2009 02:29:25 GMT

Upon seeing these intimate pictures photographed by brad pitt in november on the news, i jumped frantically onto the internet to find them without much luck.. Two months later with a bit more patience, they surface with ease. these are all beautiful in a way that i can't describe

google search: "brangelina"

happy new years niggas

christmas in eight!

Wed, 17 Dec 2008 20:29:01 GMT

I had breakfast with melody this morning
my entire afternoon will be spent gift wrapping :)
and in the evening i will go to church and hang with the night owls

...it's raining, wonderful

Happiest three weeks in California

Thu, 04 Dec 2008 23:11:35 GMT

I'll edit this later with feelings, thoughts, and all that fun stuff.. But as of right now, I should be packing for Laughlin, Nevada. Enjoy but a fraction of what i was able to capture on camera:

My brother waiting at the baggage claim at LAX

close call

Roderick and Lawrence

Ms. Hudgens and myself, chillin

my brother at a parking lot in pasadena

part II, he doesn't care for this one much

I didn't really care for this one much

rio

really bad sushi

catered to our little hearts content, compliments of pf changs

chris and pauline, enjoying some tortilla chips and dip

Faith was studying for chem that entire evening! Brave little one!

lfcl

We went a little crazy

Hannah and I outside of BJs

CUE!

Charmander and Squirtle, hanging out (squirtle>charmander)

Su-pa Kawai!

mario

winter foliage

chris and i! oh, and eg

eg's little secret on pavement

usual suspects

these three!

I love you, yes you!

really annoying lady

crotch shot

another day

this christmas...

Thu, 04 Dec 2008 07:25:45 GMT

I want nothing too extravagant, nothing really tangible..
i just want to come home to love and warmth, everyday

October 16-24, 2008

Fri, 24 Oct 2008 18:01:35 GMT

andrea and shar
Lately, I've been seeing Jami's face a lot. Thursday, last week we went to old town pasadena on a whim and had an amazing brew at this coffee house tucked away off sierra madre and colorado blvd(i lost my canon there by the way with a year's worth of pictures!!). I saw her again the following Sunday with jen at starbucks in montebello after work and we hung out at uptown whittier after school on wednesday.

Uptown Whittier is what i imagined old town pasadena to be like prior to going there four years ago. Unlike Pasadena, Uptown whittier is very cozy and quiet. The houses that lined the streets were reminicent of an era that I've read about and seen, only in books. I loved the pine trees that filled the air with a scent that made me miss christmas all over again. There were cute record stores, fresh everything from the farmers market, and old vintage shops with little trinkets and array of glasses that i wanted to steal. After exploring for a bit, we settled down for mediterranean food. It was a sensory overload.

i was hooking up the printer yesterday when i discovered that it also came with a fine scanner!

creep

victoria

beth sabe

wow

ricky martin reborn and ariana

rocio aka krazy kat

+2 from rods kickback ages upon ages ago

the yoga house

jami in an ally at pasadena

we made our way up a stairway that lead us to a really bad ass roof top, fit for a party/kickback of any size at any time of the day

scenes from the life of andy warhol

tonight, rod, casey, julian and i are going to dann manahans party in hacienda heights. It should be badass

SURPRISE OF THE CENTURY

Mon, 20 Oct 2008 14:44:54 GMT

I'm loosing sleep over a girl..lol

Farewell, my fair-weather friends

Fri, 03 Oct 2008 08:45:21 GMT

It's really interesting to note how quickly people waltz in and run out of your life on a whim. Keep in mind, they don't leave empty-handed. You're robbed of the very trust you bestowed upon them and they're gone with the wind. Of course, I'm not speaking from experience, rather, observation. Duh