[13 Dec 2020|06:16pm] [ mood | awake ] [ music | Jon Brion ] Hey, this is Lance. I'm not here right now so please leave your name, number, and a brief message after the beep. 22 comments|post comment

rant rant rant [19 Jun 2009|09:32pm] when i don't keep busy i find myself pondering over hypotheticals, minutes on end of "what ifs" and "if onlys" and then i stop myself. I hate dreaming about someone i cared deeply about only to shun it out the morning after in disdain. How can I genuinely be happy for that someone who has already moved on and found peace and happiness in someone else. I doubt i could lie to myself like that. Parts of me stay behind, and that's something i probably need to work on Why am i so scornful? ___________________________________________________________________ my sister is growing into a person i am despising more and more each day. When i leave for work in the morning, she's on the computer and when i come back in the evening she hasn't moved. Her nose is constantly down at her phone texting away, and her ears always plugged into her ipod. It disgusts me, i feel as though she is a caricature of the obnoxious girls on the disney channel. She complains about not getting texts and picture comments. if i do move out, which i have been pondering over for a good three months, i know the apartment will be left in shambles because nobody in my family cleans up after themselves. Irritating! ps. and i think my sisters late night internet voyages has finally given our laptop a much-needed virus.. __________________________________________________________________ I need to get lost in a really great movie 1 comment|post comment

[10 Jun 2009|09:32am] Top 5 best decisions of 2009: -Staying at Aldo -Taking jui jitsu -Saving money -Repairing my car -???? my ass is getting promoted at aldo It's going to be hard, yet so worth it $$$$$$$$$, :) 1 comment|post comment

first/last time i'm ever doing this [02 Jun 2009|07:59pm] irrelevant thoughts about you, and you and you.. 1. I miss your presence. I could tell you everything with the utmost assurance that it would be kept safe in the confines of your heart. I don't know where we are or how we got to this place. I can bet my bottom dollar that we will never be where we were, three years ago. 2. I doubt you'd ever recognize your own cynicism, even if it came in the form of a 3x5 piece of plywood that read, "Cynic" in scarlet red. I love you and I hate you. 3. We don't see eye to eye on certain things, but I've known you for so long that we can work past it. Our relationship is on pause as of late, but I'm enveloped in zeal at the thought of your homecoming. 4. I don't know what I'm doing with you. I'm really unhappy. Our conversations are bland, your humor is dry, my interest in you is waning by the second. I need someone exciting, spontaneous and you are none of the above. It's funny how I insist on staying for lack of someone better. You can never be what I want. 5. Just grow up already

[26 May 2009|11:35am] i dreamt about EDC last night, this must be a sign for i never dream post comment

[21 Apr 2009|09:06am] </param> Upon receiving the impromptu question, Ms. California put the state of California to shame with her poor diction. However, she does receive high marks for telling Perez/America how it ought to be post comment

sean paul-get busy hahah [22 Mar 2009|06:05pm] 3am: Rods 7am: Church 10am: Meeting 11am: work 6pm: off, school work Note to self: Don't spend anymore money eating out! ( +3 / thoughts ) post comment

if only! [18 Mar 2009|10:38am] [ mood | apathetic ] [ music | embraceable you ] oh, but i will! I'm currently head-over-heels over two women, it will pass, i understand. But both of which are significantly older than i am. Being nineteen is such a disadvantage--spoken like a true child, indeed! ( thoughts about my 2nd day ) 2 comments|post comment

good day to be alive [03 Mar 2009|07:22pm] [ mood | blessed ] [ music | les nubians ] i had orientation at the shoppes for the new forever xxi in montebello. I'm really excited because i start as a zone leader, which, as the name implies,oversees associates in a designated area. It's only when others are experiencing calamity that one begins to count their blessings and accept what they have. Lately i've.. - been madly infatuated with someone - made strong strides towards self-improvement - terribly busy with work - been brushing up on my french i kind of love my life at this moment au revoir post comment

what is in a dream [28 Feb 2009|02:34pm] last night, i dreamt i died and immidiatley found myself in the presence of God. I was overflowing with an unattainable earthly happiness. I saw God, but his face was void wack.

feb. 21, 2009 [26 Feb 2009|02:26pm] [ mood | geeky ] [ music | lykke li, dance dance dance ] 2 corinthians 5:17, "therefore, if any man is in christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new." ( What I did today (2/26) ) 4 comments|post comment

at least i have my health [11 Feb 2009|11:21am] i'm finally feeling better i wish i had the cash to get my septum re-done/lowered i hate that most of my savings goes towards insurance, books, and all the other student fees at least i have my health post comment

i'm losing my voice [05 Feb 2009|11:25am] </param> 4 comments|post comment

annoying/rant/bullshit [28 Jan 2009|04:29pm] [ music | califone-anthony green ] ubiquitous phrases that irritate me: "that's what she said" "no homo" "fuck my life" the list goes on.. i fucking hate reading old entrees. i hate losing people to losers and i hate everyone whose fallen out of my life, i hate being plan B. motherfucker! i never get what/who i want

invitational [26 Jan 2009|03:35pm] made this today, 4 comments|post comment

"everything will be okay!" [20 Jan 2009|08:31am] [ mood | awake ] yesterday, christine and i went to an italian bistro that i could not pronounce to save the life of me. After we drove around aimlessly around orange to find a theater that wasn't already sold out for marley and me.. after about an hour we threw in the towel, went to blockbuster, rented across the universe and purchased mint chocolate chip at baskin robins. Lovely

jan 17 09 [17 Jan 2009|04:17pm] [ mood | sore ] [ music | john legend, heaven only knows ] my entire body is pulsating from yesterdays three hour workout at the gym and from running around under 85 degrees of pure, unrelenting sunlight while dodging paint balls from korean acquaintances in san diego.

Jan 5 [06 Jan 2009|12:07am] [ mood | cold ] ( see us at a b-of-a near you ) 1 comment|post comment

first of 09 [02 Jan 2009|11:43am] [ mood | too lazy to upload ] [ music | spliff beats ] i dislike other people finding out intimate details about my life from other sources. Can we please keep that area of my life under the rug for now? it's a new year, big deal! everyday is just as good as any to half-ass on "resolutions" and start off on a "clean slate", losers! we hung out last night and it was good, i liked it! someone please resuscitate an old friend of mine, Substance. She's absent in all of yours (and my/mine) journal entrees, thanks!

Hi, 2009 [31 Dec 2008|06:08pm] ( novembers issue from W magazine )

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